Hi! I’m M. I turned 30 this year. I can’t believe it. I have no idea how I got here. Where did my 20s go?? Who is this little girl and why is she calling me Mommy?? This year has been a whirlwind. When I was 12 or 13 I would look in the mirror and try to imagine what I would look like at 18. At 18 I would do the same at 21. I never pictured 30. Ever.
So yesterday was my half birthday. Meaning halfway to my next birthday. Almost 31. Its still not sinking in. I guess that’s why I’m blogging. There are so many themes to my life, so many issues I want to just get out of my system.
I’m currently unable to work. I’ve had this undercurrent of illness to my life, since I was a teenager, and again it has flared up. Right now my life is uncertain due to my health condition and I have plenty of time to sit here and think…think…think. Can you tell I’m a mom? That was from “Blue’s Clues”.
Despite what is going on, I am very happy with my family, my husband, my daughter, where I live. I was born in Austin and raised in Pittsburgh. I left a bad marriage three years ago and moved back to Texas. I married a longtime friend in June. Our love story is worth it’s own post at a later date and time. I have not been back to Pittsburgh in three years. I have my own reasons and I’ll probably blog about that too. I am just so amazed how different our country is from region to region.
I am a nurse. Nine years now. Most recently in hospice. That plays into my spiritual beliefs. I don’t go to church, I was raised Catholic and I no longer believe in that doctrine. I’ve tried different churches when I moved here. No dice. I can’t go to churches that openly condemn other people just because they are different. So the search continues.
Since I’ve been more ill than usual I have been reading constantly. I fear for the life of my Kindle, because it is getting obese and being forced to work late nights and long hours. I am always interested in a good story. So I will blog about my favorite books, what I’m currently reading, etc.
And finally, I can’t ignore what I was trying to ignore. I was trying SO HARD to ignore this years presidential election. Really I was. My parents are extremely RED. I mean, my mother listens to Rush. I used to drink the kool aid too. I have yet to register to vote in Texas, but I plan to soon, and I will register as an independent. I don’t particularly like either candidate, and at this point in time, I’m considering writing in my cat, Punkin, for President and my daughter’s stuffed cat Minnie, for veep. I do have very strong feelings regarding women’s rights, sexual assault, immigration, healthcare, foreign policy. I know my history. I know the constitution. Sometimes I would like to keep my head buried in the sand, but it took that idiot Akin in Missouri to get me really pissed, as a nurse and a woman, and realize that we are letting men and politicians have a say about a body part that they do not possess. INSANITY!!!
