I can see clearly now?

Good report from the retina specialist.  So why did I put a question mark?  I still have black floaters that I’m supposed to “get used to” and my vision is blurry at times.  I have never had perfect vision, I have had to wear glasses or contacts since I was 8, but seeing objects in my field of vision isn’t something I ever thought I’d have to get “used” to.

We discussed my overall diagnosis.  He again stressed that it “could” be sarcoidosis.  He “could” do a biopsy on my left eye, isolate the ‘snowballs’ or collections of cellular material gathering in the back of my eye and see what it is and then I “might” have a definitive diagnosis of sarcoid.  But he does not feel that the benefits outweigh the risk of cutting my eyeball open.

So the poison appears to be working.  Woo.

I have a second opinion scheduled for next week.  I just want to know that I’m doing the right thing.  That this is what it is.

I have been having more and more pain in my joints.  The knees were really bad last night.  8/10 and required intervention.  I was actually shuffling around the house because my knees were so tender.

I’m still having to ration healthcare based on my financial status.  I discussed depression as a possible cause of increased pain, but I haven’t been able to afford the copay for more than one appointment per week.  I go in order of priority.  Eye doc and rheumatology comes first.  Maybe I’ll up my zoloft again.

I’m trying.  When I try to do more, I hurt more, and I crash.  How does one get past that?

I know, start low, go slow.  Just walking a block to the front of the apartment complex seems to zonk me.  Just running errands exhausts me.  I don’t know what to do here.

Any tips???  Tricks??  Ideas??  I’m completely at a loss.