Certain people in this household do not like the way they are portrayed in this blog.
This is my outlet. I can’t afford therapy right now. I’m sick, I’m in the house most of the time. These are my personal memories so I can look back on a tough time in my life and realize how strong I am for surviving.
Just because I am in someone’s debt it does not mean that they have the right to abuse me and my family.
If you don’t like my perspective on your behavior, change it. Period.
And if my musings and recollections offend you, try apologizing. Try looking at your own behavior. Hell, try professional help.
I will not take down this blog. I will not be cowed into accepting the abuse because I have no option. Despite my health, despite our issues, both me and my husband are doing all that we can to be independent.
And when that independence comes, some changes to relationship structures will come as well. I will not have to tolerate the emotional and psychological abuse.
Think what you will, this is my personal space. Writing in a journal or a diary doesn’t have the same affect. I can’t get the support from 100+ readers when I write in my journal. And actual writing makes my hands hurt.
This stance may make me homeless. I have friends, I have other family. Those constant threats do not bother me.
What bothers me is the games played for the affection of my daughter. She is confused. She is conflicted. I see it in her clingy behavior, her demand to be with me at all times. She asks me everyday to move out. It’s heartbreaking.
So I will continue to add to my suit of armor. I am one strong woman.