N: Nurse

 

I graduated nursing school in 2003.  Both of my parents are nurses, so it was kind of inevitable.  But it is hard being a nurse and being chronically ill.  You hear of chronically ill people becoming more health aware and more educated.  But what if you already KNOW?

In some ways, my education is a bonus.  I know what is dangerous, I know when I TRULY need to go to see the doctor, go to the ER, etc.  I can make more informed decisions regarding treatment and medications.  I know people “in the biz” that will give me completely unbiased opinions on doctors, hospitals etc.  I have a stethescope, bp cuff, and I know how to use them and what the numbers mean.  My docs tend to trust me more when titrating medications.  They tend to give me more leeway when starting a new medication or weaning off a med.  I know I have more cred when it comes to calling the doc, saying “hey, I need this, please call it in”, I usually get it without having to see the doc.  My PCP especially trusts my own assessment of myself.  And if not, she trusts my mom’s assessment.

But again, I know.  I tend to put myself LAST.  I know how long I can go without a certain med without DIRE effects.  I know what the “danger zone” is for vitals.  I never, ever want to ever go into the hospital, so I will rationalize every little symptom that in someone else, I would advise them to see the doc.

And again, I know.  Therefore, I will Dr. Google myself to oblivion.  I will wonder if the little twitching of my eyelid means a tumor.

One good aspect is that I am much more empathetic toward my patients.  I rarely let on that I have my own health issues unless I am directly asked.  But I tend to understand chronic pain a heck of a lot more than some of my colleagues, probably because I experience it.  I have been on some of the meds my patients are on, and I truly understand when they describe the “tingling” experienced with Topamax or the “zombie sleep” of Trazodone.

I understand the frustration when docs are patronizing, when they talk down, when they blow off patients.  And I’m in the same field as they are!!  I can’t imagine what patients feel!!

So there are some pros and cons from being a nurse and being chronically ill.  But I’m glad I have my experience to back me up.

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